Poem. again.

Why does this haunt me,
These whispered words, these lies,
In the dark when I can't see,
Everything spins and dies,

Do I face it?
Do I move on?
I cannot sit,
Until its presence is gone,

These whispers of thought,
These destroying lies,
Though I seek them naught,
They still haunt me with their cries,

I want to escape,
From what lies behind my eyes,
Why do I stay molded in this shape,
Where a mistake means my heart dies,

How do I run?
How do I fight?
Behind the clouds there's no sun,
Just more darkness, no light,

I hate being here,
In the world that is not mine,
Though I long for it when it is near,
It is not who I am, not my emblem or sign,

Flee from the darkness,
But where will I hide,
In the light? I'll be found with my mess,
I'm stuck, no matter which side,

Freedom I've found,
Isn't the absence of this curse,
But when the action is bound,
That would have me in hearse,

Random musings

I feel the strong urge to write something...but nothins coming...hmm...

Time. The constantly flowing force that always seems to do the opposite of what we desire. Forcing us ever onward through the times that we'd like to stay in, and leaving us praying that it would advance one instant during the times when sorrow knocks at our door. How do we stand with this constantly belittiling enemy? Why must we wrap our minds around this seemingly inconsistant constant? But perhaps all these questions are another way of asking-why must we live? Time is the object through which we remember. A past, or at least knowledge of one, for us to take anything and compare it and learn it and grow it. Yet God is outside time. Does God remember things in the past? I mean, he knows everything, but does he remember things? As if they happened in the past? or does he just see everything through all time as if it happened in the present? the way we don't just see a single point along a line, but see the whole line as a whole?

hmmm....i dunno...just some thoughts.
I'll try and write something coherent later...lol

wrote this a while ago...thought why not...

Why must I wait,
Why can't I run,
Straight into your arms,
Like the fast rising sun,

And why can't they see,
This hope that I've found,
Lifting me up,
Way up over, the ground,

And I--I sit here and wait,
Yes, I--I sit here and wait,
Sit in your silence,

When I talk to a friend,
And I hear your name,
I see my heart,
The difference, the change,

In every person and place,
I see your face,
And I feel it rise,
My heart's beating its pace,

(bridgish chorus)

Why can't I wake,
From this bright dream,
Spinning me round ,
I hope alls as it seems,

(more random verses to the same rhythm pattern)

Yet another poem...And yes I do want you to answer the question :-)

How do I say "I love you",
Those simple, simple words,
Refreshing like the morning dew,
Or singing of the birds,

Do I shout it from the rooftops,
Or whisper in the dark,
How do I say "I love you",
I don't know where to start,

Do I hold you close forever,
Tell you everything will be okay,
Or never touch you, never,
And keep the words at bay,

Do I seek to be near you always,
Or leave in alone in peace,
Do I buy you lots of chocolate,
Or not one single piece,

Do I take you out to dinner,
To a movie to a show,
Or you want to stay alone with me,
And for a stroll we'll go,

Do I write you mane a letter,
Telling you how wonderful you are,
You deserve so much better,
Much more then me by for

Do I seek to serve you always,
Open all the doors,
Do I help in tasks through all days,
Like getting done your chores,

I hope that you see clearly,
These words I don't know how to say,
Please know I love you dearly,
And try to act that way,

So how do I say "I love you",
Is it in word or deed,
Or something else quite new,
I don't know what you need,

When I say "I love you",
I mean more then I say,
I just want what's best for you,
Each night and every day,

I hope that you will be mine,
But I don't know what that is,
I just await His sign,
Because I want much more for you to be His,

So hear these words, "I love you"
Hear them every day,
And someday things that I knew,
Will come forth, He'll let me say.

A song

In our weakness,
Will you help us now,
In confusion,
Will you show us how,

How to move on,
And how to stay strong,
Please give us your light,
Hold us in this fight,

Because there's beauty in the pain,
There's beauty in the broken,
Hope falls like the rain,
Coming from words unspoken,

There's beauty in the hope,
Beauty in heart's forgiving,
Beauty in how we cope,
Beauty in just living,

Let us live, God,

And fill us with your fire,
Let our knees nod,
When time are very dire,
I give you my trails,
I give you my cares,
Carry me through these miles,
As we face these snares,